my fucking god

The next time i make a song, is when i get the boy i want.

Hi, you happen to be a friend/fan or new person stumbling across my stuff. But hello, my name is Ilovecats324/Mikeila and I'm here to give you an explanation about my lore/life on newgrounds and my 5 month history on here

Lets start with the common knowledge first

So, my name is Mikeila, I joined Newgrounds on 9/3/23. and my first news post was made on 11/8/23

First news post

Now, im going to skip over the first few news posts i made since those aren't important to this story

will give a short recap to them though

I basically had 3 news posts complaining because P-Bot wouldn't let me post audio in the audio portal (I used Ng as a platform to post music since my account was sitting and rotting with nothing on it so might as well put something on it no?

The next few news posts after that were just me bitching about some stupid shit like me not being able to be motivated to open LMMS and make another song. Then we have me yapping about the sketch i have festering on my micro SD card (which i did not finish)

Next up we have the 11/16/23 incident.

11/16..

About 11/16 I met my newgrounds boyfriend now ex. Were just going to call him trees. I'm not calling him out by name, I basically wasted 2 months of his and my time. In a pointless lustful relationship pretty much, and then now i call 11/16 hell day

The next news posts were just complaints or rants about stupid shit. if you wanna look just visit these few links for the rest of nov

https://ilovecats324.newgrounds.com/news/34

https://ilovecats324.newgrounds.com/news/33

https://ilovecats324.newgrounds.com/news/33

https://ilovecats324.newgrounds.com/news/31

https://ilovecats324.newgrounds.com/news/30

Lore on jan of 2024

First part of the year i had numerus mental break downs under the span of the first 7 days of the year which caused this news post

I'm crazy

For information that the public did not know, my mother saw my mental breakdowns and threatened to get me dealt with by a psychiatrist, which i am very much afraid of them. I do not wanna be put into a pysch ward, i cannot trust people like that

Jan 26th.

Jan 26th was the day after i broke up with my ex, i felt highly lonely and i could not stop having constant meltdowns, i was non stop drawing and crying, i tried isolated myself and basically went on pyscho rants about my eyes burning and how my color pencils were slowly fading away due to me using and abusing them. I was going through something, and i felt completely helpless, and i wish i had more people at the time to reach out to comfort to me, because i was getting close to doing some fucked up shit to myself that day. I felt so alone and i regretted what i did, which i still kinda do but not as much as i did on that day.

I'm going to skip to march since the rest of the stuff in this period is not important.

But we can discuss the fact

I got scouted in the art portal, and then got descouted 2 days after wards. I also got discord nitro from a friend of mine and was happy my ex blocked me, for a stupid reason. I also was dealing with many mental health issues and i was constantly writing shit to my bestfriend like, sophia im going to grab a knife right now and fucking stab myself.

March!

in this month, i got exposed, doxxed, and then i dealt with some bad mental issues

alot of people know what went down

despite me writing shit to my bestfriend like

"Sophia, I feel like there is no escape to my life and i think killing myself is the only way out of this hell"

This month was a pretty good month, despite me having numerus regrets in life.

But anyways thanks for reading!

Ily so much

thank you for 100 fans!

OMG... THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH, IM FUCKING CRYING RN.

THANK YOU

THANK YOU

OMG THANK YOU GUYS

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I WANNA HUG YOU ALL AND BUY YOU FLOWERS

I've noticed that, I've been seeking other kinds of art styles rather than the one i have now, it feels like. That my art style is very fucking dingy and retarded and I want to make some changes to the way i draw, so art might slow down/be shitter than usual because im trying to distance myself from that old art style that I have that im really starting to fucking hate rn

DAWG WHAT THE FUC-

this must have been a mistake

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BRO

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