currently expressing myself thru scenecore revival songs because there is something mentally wrong with me

I'm sorry, I've been going through alot these past 4 months. Some ppl leaving my life has had a huge fucking mental toll on me, and just now is when i admit it. Also been paranoid and just thinking about ghosting everyone, because i just don't even feel right with myself nd i just have alot of guilt rn for some shit i did 3 months ago. I've apologized a million times, ik but i still feel terrible about it. I'm sorry for posting sm, its just i feel like that is the only way to properly express how i feel

i cut my hair, like SHORT and she has not noticed

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Anyways im currently outside your window rn (the one to the left)

Selasername (pedophile)

Demonicpico (liar)

Themadguy1784 (doxxed me, also loves to harass me in the NG discord server)

Concerneduser6 (exposed me for nothing)

Finasty (weirdo)

Fluffyartist (you are fucking imature and retarded)

Crawdad (I'm done making fun of you, i feel bad and ik you hate me. so ima just leave you blocked.)

Anyways, hows life going?

This bitch trips over everything istfg🙄🙄🙄🙄

idk, im kinda done sharing my face online (publicly) I think im kinda fucking fugly looking, plus what is the point of showing my face, well if i happened to forget to delete some pictures of my face oh well.

I hate the way i look, i don't wanna share that on the internet. Also I really do not my IRLS finding my shit, like it actually poses a threat too me and im not trying to fucking deal with that. Plus! I cannot allow my opps to do this too me

its almost 6 am, and im still awake, I should sit outside and watch the sunrise while im blasting syris from my shitty laptop

this is my fav song btw

https://soundcloud.com/xxsyris/screaming?si=da4d862b30964c578f614099e1045a85&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

I used to cry to it alot, plus it was a way to cope with my mental issues.

anyways, I'm srry for being up so late

everyone left my fucking house, i am so grateful for this i was getting so pissed having people over at my house. my mom and her friend left, thank god i am so fucking tired. I am like really tired and they were full of energy they were driving me crazy. Idk, now im just trying to keep my eyes open and not tryna fall asleep

sorry to my friends which i didn't really get to talk too today

OMFG I HAVE TO TEXT MY SQUAD ON MY PHONE SINCE I GOT PPL OVER AND I DONT WANT THEM SEEING MY SHIT